Heartstring A + Heartstring B = Knots

(c) 2009 Rhiannon Evans, in Wales; Norwich Film Festival Best Student Film 2011. She can sing too. Here are some more short films by Rhiannon Evans.

Heartstrings → Knots

JILL I’m upset you are upset

JACK I’m not upset

JILL I’m upset that you’re not upset that I’m upset that you’re upset.

JACK I’m upset that you’re upset that I’m not upset that you’re upset that I’m upset, when I’m not.

JILL You put me in the wrong

JACK I am not putting you in the wrong
JILL You put me in the wrong for thinking you put me in the wrong.

JACK Forgive me

JILL No

JACK I’ll never forgive you for not forgiving me

It hurts Jack
to think
that Jill thinks he is hurting her
by (him) being hurt
to think
that she thinks he is hurting her
by making her feel guilty
at hurting him
by (her) thinking
that he is hurting her
by (his) being hurt
to think that she thinks he is hurting her
by the fact that
da capo sine fine

I don’t feel good
therefore I am bad
therefore no one loves me.
I feel good
therefore I am good
therefore everyone loves me.
I am good
You do not love me
therefore you are bad. So I do not love you.
I am good
You love me
therefore you are good. So I love you.
I am bad
You love me
therefore you are bad.

Can Jack and Jill
terrified that each and the other are not terrified
become
terrified that each and other are terrified, and
eventually,
not terrified that each and other not be terrified?

I don’t respect myself
I can’t respect anyone who respects me.
I can only respect someone who does not respect me.
I respect Jack
because he does not respect me
I despise Tom
because he does not despise me
Only a despicable person
can respect someone as despicable as me
I cannot love someone I despise
Since I love Jack
I cannot believe he loves me
What proof can he give?

Ad infinitem.

Does this sort of thing sound at all familiar to you?

The above poetic nuggets are from R.D. Laing’s brilliant little book Knots (1970). Laing was a well known anti-psychiatrist psychiatrist who was active during the 1960s and 1970s.

The title is inspired by a Sufi sutra that Laing came upon. For the curious, try Idries Shah’s Tales of the Dervishes: Teaching-stories of the Sufi Masters over the past thousand years (1969). Most tales are short, only a few pages.

Here is a 3 minute video of Laing himself:

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